Look Within

Blood spat, guts strewn, spewing liver worms
Slashes, cuts, gruesome art of my existence
Red eyes, flared nostrils, long nails, filthy teeth
The devil longs with great love, awaiting return
Razors sharpened, machetes packed, drills pile on
You mock my living, oh pasty puny human
Don't mock my white face, for the devil is me
He longs your mock, the moment the face would turn
The moment the lid blows, the moment the poles switch
I ask you to not be scared, love me, for it puts him to sleep
Caress the face, and let it be nice to you, but never forget
Who lies within, who awaits within, I remember, so should you
Today, he leapt out for a second, only a second it was
Destroyed the poor lamb who mocked him, only ever slightly so
He pawed, he gnarled, he bit, and tore her apart
Only when tasted blood he had, did the merciless act dawn
And the face drew white, the demon slept peacefully inside
Only the face stood braving the eyes, him, it was him, he did it
Oh you merciless soul, why do you walk free,
Shackled should be your fate, a cruel life to be
I know not now never to repeat, 
But the devil sits straight until the next mocker heeds
I know not of how to not be me, know not of what say you
I rue the day I was born and set to be friends with the lamb all gay
The face also has a life, a love, tell him what he deserves
Tell him how to tell her, he is not at all worth
Tell her Oh tell her, he wishes to make her his bride
Love her till dawn, and then some more, for he loves even her sight
Why suffer, why be, why cry, why mean, what is that he is fighting for
Life's losing control, like sand in a fist, just slipping ever so more
What does it mean, who is he, why did the devil chose him
The devil must die, be rid and say goodbye, say, you are all done
Chosen he has life, fun and a wife, just leave you beastly non-human
I'll fight you, I don't care, I'll beat you Oh I will, I care too much now
I care to be happy and be happier still, and more make my world happy
And everyone it in, I do. Help him if you know, his eyes are true
This heart pure, and love unending. Is it a beginning or
And end that nears, the demon is him or is he the demon,
Make me realize of the truth of my kind
Make me realize of the life I have to ride

Among the Waves

This is the part where I stare at the vast sea

Do I appreciate its enormity or my minuscularity

The life as I know means less today, different

Approaching my destiny, my end, my destination

Instant fear, joy and excitement grips, untethered

Bold, it sails on, caressing the gentle beast underneath,

Machismo unstroked, respected, it glides on

Hollow souls are passing around, gazing the same gaze,

Taking in all that's around, they breathe, more heavily still

In time a soul walks up, greets, he is a boy, my age,

We get talking, and he seeks solace, narrating his love tale

"My life today is about this friend, this girl, this soul,
So alike we are, manners, tone, movements, thoughts
Yet fail to understand each other, we are, puzzled
But even in the weakest moments, in the fiercest of our fights, 

We know, we know of the intensity in our eyes
The meaning of our smiles, the smell we create, the love we imbibe
We are more we know, we are complete we know
I love her, she love me, our love is true we know
But sometimes we get unsure, not of the love, 

But of what this is, to what depth are we getting in
Our love is a scared continuum, me I'm more volatile,

Mornings I feel this relationship would see so little light

By evening, her dusky skin becomes the color of my life
Sometimes I think this affects her, for she too is volatile,

Maybe less, but she is, alike we are you see

I don't know how this love story ends, though I have set a timeline

Yet ever still wishing something would change,

And we not be bound in time but today i wish,

That time be still so we can live a whole lifetime"

Held in utter gasp, I stared at this foolish heart, of a child

He seems to have it all, yet confused, I don't know why

I don't know, i don't, for what is to become of life

Will they be together, would a star shine,

or would this world see yet another crime

But the hum, the drum, the roar of the boat continues

Trudging forward, ever so slow, majestic,

Lives unfolding all around, mine a speck in this blind

Approaching our destiny, our end, our destination

Instant fear, joy and excitement grips, untethered

Bold, we sail on, caressing the gentle beast underneath,

Machismo unstroked, respected, it glides on

B- Minor

Melodies of thoughts, strung in a pearl
Of my significant meaningless life, struggling,
Dragging, raring to pick up, it hoards my mind;
The endless tire, fighting sadness, evil,
Truth and all my lies; Harming within, torturing

Moans, shrieks and those deep scars,
Scare you away, you cry, you weep 
"Don't think" you say, well, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, this is just me, I'm sorry,
This is all who I can be, none more

Melodies of thoughts, the music,
The rhyme and the rhythm, humming,
Thumping, coarse, fine, high, mellow
The beat is one, its me; The chill follows
It ain't silence, but music my love

It ain't weird, but me, my love,
Don't cry, look the moon is in the sky,
It's humming my song, my life,
It's looking down upon me, into my eyes,
Don't worry, we are fine; Our life,
Is in the right chord and you are mine.