The Fear

Her eyes are no more searching, the lips are pursed in view
To see what she has achieved, the picture how it has come true
The mind is weak and hurting, the aches and madness is wearing
The nose is cold as frost, the toes and tips are numb, not cold
The trickles are blood, clot and froze, the clothes are dirty and torn
The feat she sought stands tall, not much her chest, but the eyes have swolled
The war, is long but done, a battle just won, much lost more won, no...
No, this is not enough, the wound has to mean more, her life has to see more
The heir is all but strung, her fight is all but done, the wind is all but burnt
Her life is wrought, her mind is bogged, her wrists are purple, her hair is crumbled
Yet the tears have not dried, pale as the winter sky, her fight has not yet died
Like a Phoenix she will rise,  up the trees and the hills, burning those that defy
Her war is long drawn, another battle beckons bold, the nostrils flare,  the shields go up
She runs, shouting and screaming, streaming to be our lore.

You're not Weak

The grunt of the determined weak, is the strongest sound I ever heard
A tireless melancholy abound, holds, never letting go, they strut for you
The eyes old, wrinkly, blood-shot, stare back hard, fierce, still
Yet a smile they hold, so bright, so toxic, it melts all angst
The hands are rough, young, the arms bulge with all the hard-work
Steady, reactive, frightening but courteous they stay on either side
His torso is steady, a heart, beating like clockwork, never too excited
Never muddled; a paunch is building, perhaps the regular indulgence
Weakness? No but an escape from all that is wrong with this world
He means to take care but only so much can he take, only so much

I looked at him with sympathy, but he needed none, his look conveyed
I felt a tinge, nervous me, creeping within, my leg shaking involuntary
I thought deep, of how, how many of him are there around us
Strong yet dilapidated, by the hits of time, of the rich and the unkind
Yet they don't give up, never give up them all, they only look up
To see an unsmiling soul, mortified, grey, scant, foul, they smell
Yet they smile back, smile for us, smile for a world so round, so wound
But who cares, together all alone, they surrender each night, to fight back at dawn. 

Look Within

Blood spat, guts strewn, spewing liver worms
Slashes, cuts, gruesome art of my existence
Red eyes, flared nostrils, long nails, filthy teeth
The devil longs with great love, awaiting return
Razors sharpened, machetes packed, drills pile on
You mock my living, oh pasty puny human
Don't mock my white face, for the devil is me
He longs your mock, the moment the face would turn
The moment the lid blows, the moment the poles switch
I ask you to not be scared, love me, for it puts him to sleep
Caress the face, and let it be nice to you, but never forget
Who lies within, who awaits within, I remember, so should you
Today, he leapt out for a second, only a second it was
Destroyed the poor lamb who mocked him, only ever slightly so
He pawed, he gnarled, he bit, and tore her apart
Only when tasted blood he had, did the merciless act dawn
And the face drew white, the demon slept peacefully inside
Only the face stood braving the eyes, him, it was him, he did it
Oh you merciless soul, why do you walk free,
Shackled should be your fate, a cruel life to be
I know not now never to repeat, 
But the devil sits straight until the next mocker heeds
I know not of how to not be me, know not of what say you
I rue the day I was born and set to be friends with the lamb all gay
The face also has a life, a love, tell him what he deserves
Tell him how to tell her, he is not at all worth
Tell her Oh tell her, he wishes to make her his bride
Love her till dawn, and then some more, for he loves even her sight
Why suffer, why be, why cry, why mean, what is that he is fighting for
Life's losing control, like sand in a fist, just slipping ever so more
What does it mean, who is he, why did the devil chose him
The devil must die, be rid and say goodbye, say, you are all done
Chosen he has life, fun and a wife, just leave you beastly non-human
I'll fight you, I don't care, I'll beat you Oh I will, I care too much now
I care to be happy and be happier still, and more make my world happy
And everyone it in, I do. Help him if you know, his eyes are true
This heart pure, and love unending. Is it a beginning or
And end that nears, the demon is him or is he the demon,
Make me realize of the truth of my kind
Make me realize of the life I have to ride

Among the Waves

This is the part where I stare at the vast sea

Do I appreciate its enormity or my minuscularity

The life as I know means less today, different

Approaching my destiny, my end, my destination

Instant fear, joy and excitement grips, untethered

Bold, it sails on, caressing the gentle beast underneath,

Machismo unstroked, respected, it glides on

Hollow souls are passing around, gazing the same gaze,

Taking in all that's around, they breathe, more heavily still

In time a soul walks up, greets, he is a boy, my age,

We get talking, and he seeks solace, narrating his love tale

"My life today is about this friend, this girl, this soul,
So alike we are, manners, tone, movements, thoughts
Yet fail to understand each other, we are, puzzled
But even in the weakest moments, in the fiercest of our fights, 

We know, we know of the intensity in our eyes
The meaning of our smiles, the smell we create, the love we imbibe
We are more we know, we are complete we know
I love her, she love me, our love is true we know
But sometimes we get unsure, not of the love, 

But of what this is, to what depth are we getting in
Our love is a scared continuum, me I'm more volatile,

Mornings I feel this relationship would see so little light

By evening, her dusky skin becomes the color of my life
Sometimes I think this affects her, for she too is volatile,

Maybe less, but she is, alike we are you see

I don't know how this love story ends, though I have set a timeline

Yet ever still wishing something would change,

And we not be bound in time but today i wish,

That time be still so we can live a whole lifetime"

Held in utter gasp, I stared at this foolish heart, of a child

He seems to have it all, yet confused, I don't know why

I don't know, i don't, for what is to become of life

Will they be together, would a star shine,

or would this world see yet another crime

But the hum, the drum, the roar of the boat continues

Trudging forward, ever so slow, majestic,

Lives unfolding all around, mine a speck in this blind

Approaching our destiny, our end, our destination

Instant fear, joy and excitement grips, untethered

Bold, we sail on, caressing the gentle beast underneath,

Machismo unstroked, respected, it glides on

B- Minor

Melodies of thoughts, strung in a pearl
Of my significant meaningless life, struggling,
Dragging, raring to pick up, it hoards my mind;
The endless tire, fighting sadness, evil,
Truth and all my lies; Harming within, torturing

Moans, shrieks and those deep scars,
Scare you away, you cry, you weep 
"Don't think" you say, well, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, this is just me, I'm sorry,
This is all who I can be, none more

Melodies of thoughts, the music,
The rhyme and the rhythm, humming,
Thumping, coarse, fine, high, mellow
The beat is one, its me; The chill follows
It ain't silence, but music my love

It ain't weird, but me, my love,
Don't cry, look the moon is in the sky,
It's humming my song, my life,
It's looking down upon me, into my eyes,
Don't worry, we are fine; Our life,
Is in the right chord and you are mine.

Yes, No, Come On

the moment unreal, so true untrue, smiling 
the answer incomplete, so long wrong, hiding
the eyes glistening, so real unreal, shining
the soul lost, so shredded wasted, whispering

in this moment it gives, it sings, it rhymes
your life, your time, your needs, they sing
they shout, cry out aloud, of this moment
Oh, this moment, make it true, make it shine

make this world look up and see you smile
make me adore you more, a fan of yours
try me, try her, try us all, see us care
and care some more, beautiful, we sing

aloud don't think, don't feel, don't see, just be
i am, you are, we are, lets laugh, lets dance
the tapping is getting to me, to you, together
together we dance and sing and dance all night

the moment unreal, so true untrue, smiling 
the answer incomplete, so long wrong, hiding
the eyes glistening, so real unreal, shining
the soul lost, so shredded warm, whispering

Tall

The smile of the strong, and the care of the week
The roar of the humble, and the love of the meek
The fish in the pond, and the horse in the field
The stars in your eyes, and the smell for the bees

Crazy little world jumping hoops in loops, worrying,
Scathing, breathing, undignified, staring in abyss
Life has some terms, we define their needs,
The world is in a hurry, but not me, not me

Shortened in lies, in guts all tied,
Holding a grudge, cursing too much
Venom dispensed like candy in a store
Meaning too little, destroying the whole

I am tall, tall to your small demands, tall to this world,
Tall to walk, to admire the things above
To stay still and smile, and care, and roar, and love
I am, you are, he is, so is she, we are, we will, stand tall

Fallen Warrior

The melancholy beastliness of the bustle in the modest morning chariot
Adoring a war stained hue, the chariots line up one behind the other
Warriors hoard up, fill in with purpose, some sure, many unsure
Yet the purpose stands strong, foreheads all warm with dreams, aspirations
A future they see, only time and these others, stand in between
Today's war is different, muscles to machines, swords to laptops and armor to suit
This journey is long and swayed, for a few mighty will pull through
Others will find solace in the crevices and nooks, hurt but content
I do not pray for those with strength, not muscles I talk of
Its the men and women who get crushed on the journey
The dreams that now only whisper at night, the hopes dead
No mercy, no light, for them I pray may you be strong and wise
This is not a battle but a war in sight, hold on, measure the blows
Take it deep inside, the light ain't too far, the dawn approaches
Hold on, be strong, the beast will soon fall with plight, and then,
You ride on that chariot, each day, the color will strike of life,
You are a survivor, a winner and a believer in life. 

Come Down to Me

You little cat, you scared little cat, don't purr
Don't be afraid, don't hold on so tight
Come down from the tree, come smile with me

Fear suits you not, worried too much you are
What is, is; nothing bounds all wrong,
No one bears only burns, don't be afraid
Come down from the tree, come smile with me

Played, all merry and unhindered, you all night,
It's just the morning setting in, the sun coming up,
Don't be afraid of this light, it brings new hope,
Not the death of the night, not sadness but might
Come down from the tree, come smile with me

That ball you love so much, lost it is you said,
Don't worry, I have it, safe, you'll get it back
Just come down from the tree, come smile with me
Come just let it be, the night will soon fall in,
And I'll be there by you, don't be afraid, don't push me away
Come down from the tree, come smile with me.

 

Demon Inside

Crass are your words, mourning the hallowed life,
Unjust you stood, smeared in blood, empty, shaking inside
Move on, thou ain't what He made you to be
Ghastly, unearthly, demon you stand underneath

No mercy, no tears, no sorrow, no song,
No worldly respect, and no one to mourn
Walk away, walk on, walk forth and don't turn back

Devil thou art, no child of His, a contusion,
An aberration, a mistake, a tragedy, a shadow you are
No need to be and exist in me, move out,
Move out, for his wrath shall come

Sweeping you from within, to hell you shall be cursed
Bygones are bygones, don't mean much today
Look forward and see her smile, see her innocent life

Let her live, let her run, a child of Lord, a blessing she is
Don't be the man you see within, come out,
For no graves have you dug, let this light cure you
Need not you to stand all grey, move out, move on, just walk away.

Sing O' Fat Lady

He got up one day, found half his world had gone, so helpless,

thoughtless he sat, wondering where and what next, but he couldn't,

for it wasn't time yet, it wasn't time to move on; He had held her yesterday,

slept in her bosom, lived in her; Today she is on a plane,

flying back for a better future; Stop her he wanted to,

cuddle her he dreamt of, only if he could, have said in time,

only if he had smiled in time, she would have stopped,

she would have been his, but he let her go, let her walk on broken glass, away

Now he knows not what to do in that empty house, the house,

that felt home with her, felt all with her; The room is too big,

and he feels so small, confined, within his own home

Don't call it home, it isn't what it was, now only walls stare back

only noises of the outside world are left; The bed is soggy,

with tears from when she left, now he walks in this boggy house, alone

wondering why he let her go, let her walk on broken glass, away

He knows not for what is right, should he let her fly

or keep her right by his side; He know she knows, she knows the pain,

and that life, he decides, he will let her choose and choose wisely he cries

It ain't over till the fat lady has sung, for sing O' fat one,

sing with passion tonight, no broken glass, no tears for his love,

his love deserves the best song you can sing, the best of everything

 

Don't Walk Away

The breath was deep, the eyes swollen,
The feet so heavy, and the mouth slightly open,
I knew not why i could walk away that night

I knew not how you could walk away that night
I know not should I have said what I wanted to say
Should I have told you that speech I prepared all day?
I hear this song by a man with a weird tone
You let her go he sings; you let her go he sings
I don’t want to say i did, i don’t want to know i did
I don’t, i don’t want to feel this way
I know you're hurt too, feeling it too
Just don’t cry my love, don’t cry my dove
Stay strong and walk this life's empty lie
You walk, you know the way, only alone it is today
But don’t worry, don’t you worry one minute
Small steps, gentle steps is all it'll take
Take you far away, to the dream land you talk of
You dream of, you think of, you are
These days were a lifetime, i lived them right
Now i just smell of you, my clothes, my home smells of you
But i love that smell, love to sleep in that smell
Like you are right here, so don’t worry, I’m happy
I'm happy and i get up each day, for someday it'll be you again
Someday I’ll see you again, till then i wont bath
I won’t wash my house, my heart, my nights
You walk, walk, don’t look back, I’ll be here my love
Because this world is round and you'll come back

Blinded By Your Eyes

I walked with you that night, that night
I saw the eyes shine, O' shine
I knew not for how bright , how bright they'd be
Looked in them all high, all high beneath

Blind I am today, for I see no one else, no one else
Its your eyes, your eyes that's all in my head
Your scent doesn't leave, doesn't leave me free
Your presence I can feel every where, every where

I can't tell you to stay with me, stay with me
Hold me tight, don't let it go, let it go
You go, go on, march on, march on
Someday I will see, I will see you again

Someday I'll hold you again, hold you again
Might you not be mine, but mine you are, you are
Fallen I am, Fallen I am, but don't worry
Smile I will for I had you, I had you is all

Don't worry, you march on, march on
Don't look back, in my blinded eyes, my blinded eyes
Don't say, don't mind, I am alright, alright
Go on for I remember you and that night, O' that night
Just as I held, I held onto you so tight,
for I was blinded, blinded by your eyes.

Fight

I stepped off this step, I got in stride for another

Left a world behind, promising to win another

I stepped off this step, I got in stride for another

Barely cooled off from the last battle, jumped head first into another

The sun scared, hid behind them clouds, the winds up in arms

Threw the boy in me down, scraped on that cold floor my pride

Dressed in leather shoes, I fought back with all might

The bruises on me, speak so less, for a friend had I found

So strong was her vibe, and smile, the winds now shudder

We meet each day, and acknowledge the other

It knows now its too weak to take me head on

For she walks by my side, my shield, my sword

Each day is long, as I thaw in this freezing heat

My limbs are stricken with pain and grief

There are worlds that await the return of a lad

But today is my fight, for tomorrow I'll be a man

They say behind my back, for crazy is he

Says he shines in his armour, which is all spotless and clean

Armour so useless for souvenirs they are, he hides

Behind the cover of a selfless heart, pure and serene

Tell him O' coward, come out and fight

The winds are forever but not the smile that fights

Tell him to die for the honour is what he came for

Not be bloating with pride of someone else's fight, Come out, Come out

Be the lad they see, fighting and winning, you know you can be.

You Called Me Here

You said I'll like it here, you said the winds are nice
You said the people all smile, you said the music sounds right
You said that I'd shine up here, then you said you were here
I stood up and came here, coz you said you were here
Now I see you no more, I walked the lanes, I ran the roads
But I don't see you here, I cant find you here
Now, I don't like it up here, the winds, they pinch
The people just stare and an unnerving silence fills the air
Yet I'm gonna hold on, walk and run this alone

Till I find you, till I see you, for you promised I'd like it here.