Life and My Fight!

Its just not working anymore,its just not smiling anymore
broken is it, sad is it, hurt or mad is it
feelings are dazed and moods are swinging
power is fake and laughter is melting
methods don't matter but they are expressed all the same
wanting to hear and end up punctured they drive
breathing a mess and sleeping eyes wide
for when i dont matter, i know not what to hope
for when i dont mean, i know not what to speak
for when i dont exist, i know not who to be
be my mind or my heart,torn each day,
yet ill decide to be just one and be same all the way!